[The movement gets him to look up. He frowns weakly.]
I have never been a captain, Izuminokami-san. I'm at a loss what we should do to help elder brother when we are so close to the end. In the end, I... do not mind if he came here, even though I wish for him to live. As long as I can protect him.
But I do not want our plan to work only to leave him trapped behind in this place because he arrived on Sunday instead. [He can't help the sting to his eyes, and he rubs them briefly even if he doesn't cry.] I don't think... we have many choices.
Izuminokami-san, you and Dimitri-san... When you... Did you exorcise him the same way? I fear... if they try the third option, they will only release the demon.
[ though this is a good point... however troubling it may be. ]
You're right, of course. [ there aren't a lot of options. but no sword wants to leave another behind to break - especially one they care so much about. ] We should bring your concerns to the others, as well, to see what they think of it. Maybe one of them will have a better idea of how to save him, or at least to ensure that he joins us here, if our plan fails.
This doesn't seem right at all... Any of the options.
[But not having a place to start other than what they are already trying is frustrating.]
You're right. I'll... talk to Taako-san, too, and make sure elder brother is written in. I wonder if those still on the ship are receiving any hints about alternatives. Dick-san maybe...?
No, it doesn't. That's why we have to believe that we'll find another way, whatever that may be.
Nikkari hasn't mentioned anything like that, but even if they did, could we trust it any more than what we've been told? If it's all coming from the demons themselves, then how do we know what information is truthful and what is only meant to toy with us?
[His jaw hardens, and he jerks his eyes down to glare at their feet. Honestly, he hates this. If it wasn't for the rejuvenation, he's starting to think it might just be better to break himself in the end and get it over with.
That sounds so stupid and hopeless, but...]
Then they should just--! [He doesn't know.] --pilot the ship to the island instead of continuing to do the fucking coitus and letting demons get the better of them!
[ haha. kanesan has thought about that, too, but he has to believe that they will find a way home, sooner or later. no battle can be so completely hopeless, can it? ]
I believe they would, if they could. I'm certain that none of them want this any more than we do.
[ ...or perhaps if they were all to break themselves, that might achieve the same end. it's not something he wants to suggest, though. none of them chose to die, and he would never ask it of anyone who has tried so hard to survive for so long. ]
Though it makes me wonder if there is another way for us to return to them - one we haven't yet discovered.
I am out of ideas, Izuminokami-san, but... I am not the best with these kinds of things. We can search the island...? Though it seems as if the raft is the only strange thing about this place. Aside from... ah, the repairing.
I know... It does not budge unless we were going to the ruins.
[There's another shake of his head, his lips tight.]
We shall find a way. [His eyes lower to the bottle at their feet, and he thinks about Junpei. Perhaps he had been rude to put so much pressure on Junpei when it came to finding a way back.] We would have a drink every week after meetings.
Junpei-san and I.
I offered after one--the one with Escha-san. I knew Junpei-san took it very hard. I thought drinking together would be relaxing, but we also ended up speaking about everything happening. [He glances up.] I wanted Junpei-san to have a way to get his thoughts in order even if I wasn't any help.
That is what I wanted to offer to you, too, was all.
[ please don't offer kanesan a drink the last thing we need is him passed out drunk in the sand
as it is, though, he only smiles sadly. ]
You have one of the biggest hearts among us, Hizamaru.
[ maybe he is a little too focused on his brother sometimes, but when he isn't, hiza is always looking after the others whenever he can. it makes him miss kunihiro even more. ]
I worried most about Junpei, I think. He has a big heart, as well, but he always seemed to struggle with the weight of it, and how to handle the things it would make him feel. Thank you for taking care of him while you could.
[Politely dismissive, he shakes his head and waves a hand.]
Junpei-san was a kind friend. Both to me and to Prompto-san. I owe him more than I can repay. It was the least I could do when I felt so useless. Even if he said many times I wasn't.
He was a good friend to me, too. Out of everyone who arrived here with us, besides our comrades... I believe he and Edelgard are the ones I wish to return home the most.
I did not speak much with Edelgard-san, but... She had a very strong will for what she believed was right, and I admired that. I would like for them both to return home as well.
Don't say that, Izuminokami-san. I believe she should still hear it. The allies she made here... and the friends, I'm sure she values them just as greatly.
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[The movement gets him to look up. He frowns weakly.]
I have never been a captain, Izuminokami-san. I'm at a loss what we should do to help elder brother when we are so close to the end. In the end, I... do not mind if he came here, even though I wish for him to live. As long as I can protect him.
But I do not want our plan to work only to leave him trapped behind in this place because he arrived on Sunday instead. [He can't help the sting to his eyes, and he rubs them briefly even if he doesn't cry.] I don't think... we have many choices.
Izuminokami-san, you and Dimitri-san... When you... Did you exorcise him the same way? I fear... if they try the third option, they will only release the demon.
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[ though this is a good point... however troubling it may be. ]
You're right, of course. [ there aren't a lot of options. but no sword wants to leave another behind to break - especially one they care so much about. ] We should bring your concerns to the others, as well, to see what they think of it. Maybe one of them will have a better idea of how to save him, or at least to ensure that he joins us here, if our plan fails.
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[But not having a place to start other than what they are already trying is frustrating.]
You're right. I'll... talk to Taako-san, too, and make sure elder brother is written in. I wonder if those still on the ship are receiving any hints about alternatives. Dick-san maybe...?
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Nikkari hasn't mentioned anything like that, but even if they did, could we trust it any more than what we've been told? If it's all coming from the demons themselves, then how do we know what information is truthful and what is only meant to toy with us?
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That sounds so stupid and hopeless, but...]
Then they should just--! [He doesn't know.] --pilot the ship to the island instead of continuing to do the fucking coitus and letting demons get the better of them!
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I believe they would, if they could. I'm certain that none of them want this any more than we do.
[ ...or perhaps if they were all to break themselves, that might achieve the same end. it's not something he wants to suggest, though. none of them chose to die, and he would never ask it of anyone who has tried so hard to survive for so long. ]
Though it makes me wonder if there is another way for us to return to them - one we haven't yet discovered.
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I am out of ideas, Izuminokami-san, but... I am not the best with these kinds of things. We can search the island...? Though it seems as if the raft is the only strange thing about this place. Aside from... ah, the repairing.
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[ sigh. neither of them are familiar enough with magic to offer much help with the situation, and that. is frustrating. ]
If anything, I think it would be the raft. The problem is that it never seems to move unless we're going to the ruins.
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[There's another shake of his head, his lips tight.]
We shall find a way. [His eyes lower to the bottle at their feet, and he thinks about Junpei. Perhaps he had been rude to put so much pressure on Junpei when it came to finding a way back.] We would have a drink every week after meetings.
Junpei-san and I.
I offered after one--the one with Escha-san. I knew Junpei-san took it very hard. I thought drinking together would be relaxing, but we also ended up speaking about everything happening. [He glances up.] I wanted Junpei-san to have a way to get his thoughts in order even if I wasn't any help.
That is what I wanted to offer to you, too, was all.
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as it is, though, he only smiles sadly. ]
You have one of the biggest hearts among us, Hizamaru.
[ maybe he is a little too focused on his brother sometimes, but when he isn't, hiza is always looking after the others whenever he can. it makes him miss kunihiro even more. ]
I worried most about Junpei, I think. He has a big heart, as well, but he always seemed to struggle with the weight of it, and how to handle the things it would make him feel. Thank you for taking care of him while you could.
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Junpei-san was a kind friend. Both to me and to Prompto-san. I owe him more than I can repay. It was the least I could do when I felt so useless. Even if he said many times I wasn't.
[Sword...........useless.]
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[ here he hesitates, but if anyone will understand the sentiment, it's hizamaru, so... ]
She reminded me of my former master.
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I think Edelgard-san would be honored to hear that.
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She is a commander of many, with a world of her own to protect. She will have more important things to worry about than one broken sword.
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I assume you already know what to write to your brother?