GENJI BANZAI

[leggymaru]

Things Hizamaru Has Shown His Anija After Learning (Upset Edition):
- the boutique clothes
- bubble bath
- aquarium
- the sunset and stars by the pool
- the fucking ahegao gun makes human noises but doesn't have a human form??? ANIJA?
- the arcade bc it's cool
- what chocobos and spiracorns look like from a book in the library from prompto's world
- the fucking heelys

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[banzais]

... I finally got to meet his beast last night, that's all.

[the darkness that dimitri carries with him, having it bubble to the surface and overflow until he couldn't take care of himself anymore.

but higekiri just tilts his head]

He will be fine, in time. I can watch over both of you still.

[leggymaru]

His...?

[Beast??? Well, he doesn't look any less fucking worried, but all he can do is make a face at Higekiri. If he scolds, it'll sound like he doesn't believe his big brother is capable.]

Was it because of Prompto-san...?

[banzais]

Hm? He hasn't told you...?

[he sounds just a little bit surprised at that before humming softly]

... I think that may have been part of it. It was a rather worrying experience, after all. When he feels as though he might be in danger... I believe he will act out more violently than he normally would.

[a beat]

It's alright. He apologized. I'm not angry with him - in truth, it was nice to have something to fight.

[swords.....]

[leggymaru]

[Look, Higekiri. YOU'RE Dimitri's boyfriend, of course Dimitri isn't going to tell him jack shit!! But it's fine. He's just worried about his nii.]

Elder brother... [He wraps his arms around Higekiris neck and burrows close, squeezes gently.] Please be careful. Even though Dimitri-san is our friend... I can't lose you, too. I don't know what I would do.

[His arms loosen, and he leans back, searching Higekiri's face.]

Elder brother, do you think...

[banzais]

[share if you don't think

but higekiri will still just allow this to happen, it's fine. he will return the gesture easily, letting his arms wrap around hizamaru's waist and holding him close - as if that'll be enough to protect him from being hurt by anything ever again.]

You won't have to worry about losing me.

[he says this certainly, for some reason.

but he tilts his head regardless, not sure what hizamaru might be getting at]

Hm...?

[leggymaru]

[At first, he shakes his head. He doesn't really want to ask; he thinks he knows what the answer is going to be. He keeps his eyes down, like he's guilty, and then he finally manages to lift them.]

Elder brother... Is it changing history if... Wei Wuxian-san brings Prompto back by repairing him like the others?

[banzais]

[ . . . . . hmmmmmmmm.

higekiri actually seems thoughtful at that, like he wants to give hizamaru a proper, respectful answer.

he settles a hand atop his head]

... I'm not sure... but perhaps it is still a little bit too early to make such a decision.

After all... Carlos and Polly may be growing lonely on the other side - and they promised the safety of those who are brought to them... It's possible that he'll be less likely to be hurt there, than he was here.

[leggymaru]

[Wow, don't make him feel bad about Carlos and Polly being alone on the other side... damn. Apologetically, his eyes lower.]

I will... speak to Wei Wuxian-san, but... you're right, elder brother. Prompto-san would be safe there with Carlos-san and Polly-san even if people here would miss him.

Perhaps I will be able to see him again one more time when this missions is over and before we return home again.

[banzais]

[ . . . . ]

You miss him, don't you?

[he speaks softly - wondering. higekiri and prompto were never close, and higekiri can't remember the last time that he actually mourned a human's death when they were fated to happen.... but it's different, watching hizamaru go through it in front of him]

[leggymaru]

[The question gets him to frown gently. He peers at Higekiri for a long moment without speaking, and then his face softens.]

He was a very good friend.

I understand why... it is dangerous for us to speak with them when we are on missions. Not for the risk of altering history, but... Hearing Prompto-san's story... I wanted to hear more of them. I wanted to hear about his world. I wanted to protect him, so he would be able to be welcomed home by his friends.

[He lowers his head.]

[banzais]

[ . . . hmmm. higekiri's expression softens at that. the truth is that he doesn't know if he'd feel the same - there is a sadness whenever a human passes, certainly, but could he feel as strongly as his brother...? is higekir's heart open for that - and if it is, would he want to accept it, knowing the pain that comes in hand?]

... you have a very open heart.

[softly, and fondly]

Even knowing how painful the loss could be... will you still reach out to the people here?

[leggymaru]

[It’s a tough decision. The feelings tumbling inside of him are so very strange; in his chest, in his mind. Wouldn’t it be easier to continue being distant, learning about no one else? His lashes lower slightly.

He nods.

Sitting by his master’s side, by the cushion. He was so gentle then, like a lapdog waiting by its master’s feet just as company.]

I want to protect them, too, elder brother. I want them to tell me... what it’s like to be human.

[banzais]

[ . . . and higekiri just makes a soft humming noise at that, contemplative. he nods once.]

Then I believe times like this too... Even to feel the weight in one's heart, and to grow from the times that are difficult -

That is very human.