The only reason that I believe he would is that, like you, his body is being used against his will.
[ it pains him to be the one to tell hizamaru this, but if anyone had to... kanesan should be the one. shifting, he reaches out to gently set a hand on hiza's shoulder. ]
I am sorry, Hizamaru. I was truly hoping he would be able to return home with the others.
[Anija? He looks away, face full of disbelief. As soon as Kanesan touches him, he recoils, fluidly pushing himself up to his feet. At first, it seems like he may run for the little village of the island, but he doesn't.
Not very far, he paces down the beach toward the water line, steps heavy and shoulders stiff. There, he keeps pacing in a tight back and forth, one hand gripping the hilt of his sword and the other reaching up to rub at his brows.]
[ ...ah. kanesan lets him go, slowly rising to his feet while hizamaru paces. he needs the distance right now, and kanesan understands that... but all the same, he's here for when hizamaru needs him. ]
[Give him just a bit. He paces and then stops for a long time, staring out at the water. And then he finally returns again to Kanesan, his face somewhat more hardened. The only thing he can manage is:]
[ there's no need for thanks, but kanesan only nods, expression solemn. ]
I thought you should hear it from one of your own.
...We can speak with Taako about the writing, and make sure he's written into it, too. If there is a way for us to escape this place safely, we will not leave him behind.
[He's already frowning, but a deeper sort of frown creases his mouth.]
We have to save him, Izuminokami-san. From the demon controlling his body. We can't... leave the demon there even to save him. We can't take it back with us.
I would never leave him at a demon's mercy if there is something to be done about it.
[ so then, what can they do? ]
...What do you think will happen to all of us if they were to exorcise the demons before performing the ritual? We were told specifically not to do so, in choosing the third option.
I worried, but... I am not sure now. I do not trust the words or advice of a demon. Perhaps they do not wish us to exorcise first because it will disrupt their plans.
But with elder brother... I am afraid to try. I do not want to lose him. I do not... want to break him forever.
[He lowers his head.]
It worked every other time... It must work now. But they will have to make sure there are no other demons.
[ he's quiet for a moment, listening to hiza's concerns and thinking over his words carefully before he speaks. ]
I understand. If it were Kunihiro... I wouldn't want to break him, either.
If they exorcise him as normal, he would most likely return here to us... but if they do as the demons say they should for the ritual, there's no telling what will happen to those who are chosen as the sacrifice. The assumption is that they would join us as well, but...
[ they can't just. assume things like that. that's too important. ]
...We should ask Taako to add saving him into the history we've written, just in case his magic works. [ he leans to the side a little, trying to catch hiza's eyes. ] We won't just leave him here, Hizamaru. But he's your brother - what is it that you think we should do?
[The movement gets him to look up. He frowns weakly.]
I have never been a captain, Izuminokami-san. I'm at a loss what we should do to help elder brother when we are so close to the end. In the end, I... do not mind if he came here, even though I wish for him to live. As long as I can protect him.
But I do not want our plan to work only to leave him trapped behind in this place because he arrived on Sunday instead. [He can't help the sting to his eyes, and he rubs them briefly even if he doesn't cry.] I don't think... we have many choices.
Izuminokami-san, you and Dimitri-san... When you... Did you exorcise him the same way? I fear... if they try the third option, they will only release the demon.
[ though this is a good point... however troubling it may be. ]
You're right, of course. [ there aren't a lot of options. but no sword wants to leave another behind to break - especially one they care so much about. ] We should bring your concerns to the others, as well, to see what they think of it. Maybe one of them will have a better idea of how to save him, or at least to ensure that he joins us here, if our plan fails.
This doesn't seem right at all... Any of the options.
[But not having a place to start other than what they are already trying is frustrating.]
You're right. I'll... talk to Taako-san, too, and make sure elder brother is written in. I wonder if those still on the ship are receiving any hints about alternatives. Dick-san maybe...?
No, it doesn't. That's why we have to believe that we'll find another way, whatever that may be.
Nikkari hasn't mentioned anything like that, but even if they did, could we trust it any more than what we've been told? If it's all coming from the demons themselves, then how do we know what information is truthful and what is only meant to toy with us?
[His jaw hardens, and he jerks his eyes down to glare at their feet. Honestly, he hates this. If it wasn't for the rejuvenation, he's starting to think it might just be better to break himself in the end and get it over with.
That sounds so stupid and hopeless, but...]
Then they should just--! [He doesn't know.] --pilot the ship to the island instead of continuing to do the fucking coitus and letting demons get the better of them!
[ haha. kanesan has thought about that, too, but he has to believe that they will find a way home, sooner or later. no battle can be so completely hopeless, can it? ]
I believe they would, if they could. I'm certain that none of them want this any more than we do.
[ ...or perhaps if they were all to break themselves, that might achieve the same end. it's not something he wants to suggest, though. none of them chose to die, and he would never ask it of anyone who has tried so hard to survive for so long. ]
Though it makes me wonder if there is another way for us to return to them - one we haven't yet discovered.
I am out of ideas, Izuminokami-san, but... I am not the best with these kinds of things. We can search the island...? Though it seems as if the raft is the only strange thing about this place. Aside from... ah, the repairing.
I know... It does not budge unless we were going to the ruins.
[There's another shake of his head, his lips tight.]
We shall find a way. [His eyes lower to the bottle at their feet, and he thinks about Junpei. Perhaps he had been rude to put so much pressure on Junpei when it came to finding a way back.] We would have a drink every week after meetings.
Junpei-san and I.
I offered after one--the one with Escha-san. I knew Junpei-san took it very hard. I thought drinking together would be relaxing, but we also ended up speaking about everything happening. [He glances up.] I wanted Junpei-san to have a way to get his thoughts in order even if I wasn't any help.
That is what I wanted to offer to you, too, was all.
[ please don't offer kanesan a drink the last thing we need is him passed out drunk in the sand
as it is, though, he only smiles sadly. ]
You have one of the biggest hearts among us, Hizamaru.
[ maybe he is a little too focused on his brother sometimes, but when he isn't, hiza is always looking after the others whenever he can. it makes him miss kunihiro even more. ]
I worried most about Junpei, I think. He has a big heart, as well, but he always seemed to struggle with the weight of it, and how to handle the things it would make him feel. Thank you for taking care of him while you could.
[Politely dismissive, he shakes his head and waves a hand.]
Junpei-san was a kind friend. Both to me and to Prompto-san. I owe him more than I can repay. It was the least I could do when I felt so useless. Even if he said many times I wasn't.
He was a good friend to me, too. Out of everyone who arrived here with us, besides our comrades... I believe he and Edelgard are the ones I wish to return home the most.
I did not speak much with Edelgard-san, but... She had a very strong will for what she believed was right, and I admired that. I would like for them both to return home as well.
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I spoke to her shortly after she arrived. She told me who killed her.
[ here his voice turns soft. ]
...It was Higekiri.
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Elder brother...?
[There's growing discontent in his voice and his eyes.]
No... Why... would he kill Beck-san...?
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[ it pains him to be the one to tell hizamaru this, but if anyone had to... kanesan should be the one. shifting, he reaches out to gently set a hand on hiza's shoulder. ]
I am sorry, Hizamaru. I was truly hoping he would be able to return home with the others.
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[Anija? He looks away, face full of disbelief. As soon as Kanesan touches him, he recoils, fluidly pushing himself up to his feet. At first, it seems like he may run for the little village of the island, but he doesn't.
Not very far, he paces down the beach toward the water line, steps heavy and shoulders stiff. There, he keeps pacing in a tight back and forth, one hand gripping the hilt of his sword and the other reaching up to rub at his brows.]
No... Elder brother...
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Thank you for telling me.
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I thought you should hear it from one of your own.
...We can speak with Taako about the writing, and make sure he's written into it, too. If there is a way for us to escape this place safely, we will not leave him behind.
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We have to save him, Izuminokami-san. From the demon controlling his body. We can't... leave the demon there even to save him. We can't take it back with us.
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[ so then, what can they do? ]
...What do you think will happen to all of us if they were to exorcise the demons before performing the ritual? We were told specifically not to do so, in choosing the third option.
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But with elder brother... I am afraid to try. I do not want to lose him. I do not... want to break him forever.
[He lowers his head.]
It worked every other time... It must work now. But they will have to make sure there are no other demons.
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I understand. If it were Kunihiro... I wouldn't want to break him, either.
If they exorcise him as normal, he would most likely return here to us... but if they do as the demons say they should for the ritual, there's no telling what will happen to those who are chosen as the sacrifice. The assumption is that they would join us as well, but...
[ they can't just. assume things like that. that's too important. ]
...We should ask Taako to add saving him into the history we've written, just in case his magic works. [ he leans to the side a little, trying to catch hiza's eyes. ] We won't just leave him here, Hizamaru. But he's your brother - what is it that you think we should do?
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[The movement gets him to look up. He frowns weakly.]
I have never been a captain, Izuminokami-san. I'm at a loss what we should do to help elder brother when we are so close to the end. In the end, I... do not mind if he came here, even though I wish for him to live. As long as I can protect him.
But I do not want our plan to work only to leave him trapped behind in this place because he arrived on Sunday instead. [He can't help the sting to his eyes, and he rubs them briefly even if he doesn't cry.] I don't think... we have many choices.
Izuminokami-san, you and Dimitri-san... When you... Did you exorcise him the same way? I fear... if they try the third option, they will only release the demon.
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[ though this is a good point... however troubling it may be. ]
You're right, of course. [ there aren't a lot of options. but no sword wants to leave another behind to break - especially one they care so much about. ] We should bring your concerns to the others, as well, to see what they think of it. Maybe one of them will have a better idea of how to save him, or at least to ensure that he joins us here, if our plan fails.
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[But not having a place to start other than what they are already trying is frustrating.]
You're right. I'll... talk to Taako-san, too, and make sure elder brother is written in. I wonder if those still on the ship are receiving any hints about alternatives. Dick-san maybe...?
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Nikkari hasn't mentioned anything like that, but even if they did, could we trust it any more than what we've been told? If it's all coming from the demons themselves, then how do we know what information is truthful and what is only meant to toy with us?
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That sounds so stupid and hopeless, but...]
Then they should just--! [He doesn't know.] --pilot the ship to the island instead of continuing to do the fucking coitus and letting demons get the better of them!
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I believe they would, if they could. I'm certain that none of them want this any more than we do.
[ ...or perhaps if they were all to break themselves, that might achieve the same end. it's not something he wants to suggest, though. none of them chose to die, and he would never ask it of anyone who has tried so hard to survive for so long. ]
Though it makes me wonder if there is another way for us to return to them - one we haven't yet discovered.
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I am out of ideas, Izuminokami-san, but... I am not the best with these kinds of things. We can search the island...? Though it seems as if the raft is the only strange thing about this place. Aside from... ah, the repairing.
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[ sigh. neither of them are familiar enough with magic to offer much help with the situation, and that. is frustrating. ]
If anything, I think it would be the raft. The problem is that it never seems to move unless we're going to the ruins.
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[There's another shake of his head, his lips tight.]
We shall find a way. [His eyes lower to the bottle at their feet, and he thinks about Junpei. Perhaps he had been rude to put so much pressure on Junpei when it came to finding a way back.] We would have a drink every week after meetings.
Junpei-san and I.
I offered after one--the one with Escha-san. I knew Junpei-san took it very hard. I thought drinking together would be relaxing, but we also ended up speaking about everything happening. [He glances up.] I wanted Junpei-san to have a way to get his thoughts in order even if I wasn't any help.
That is what I wanted to offer to you, too, was all.
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as it is, though, he only smiles sadly. ]
You have one of the biggest hearts among us, Hizamaru.
[ maybe he is a little too focused on his brother sometimes, but when he isn't, hiza is always looking after the others whenever he can. it makes him miss kunihiro even more. ]
I worried most about Junpei, I think. He has a big heart, as well, but he always seemed to struggle with the weight of it, and how to handle the things it would make him feel. Thank you for taking care of him while you could.
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Junpei-san was a kind friend. Both to me and to Prompto-san. I owe him more than I can repay. It was the least I could do when I felt so useless. Even if he said many times I wasn't.
[Sword...........useless.]
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[ here he hesitates, but if anyone will understand the sentiment, it's hizamaru, so... ]
She reminded me of my former master.
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